Ugly Truths In Life: April :]

Well hellloowww April :]

Time flies and it's April already? Hehh~ What's new. It's been a while since I last updated this blog of mine with a new post. So here I am tonight.

Things were pretty much the same til today. Work has always been taking it's toll on me. Been sick on and off thanks to my sensitive stomach. So yea...

This 2013 would be my coming 3rd year residing in this island I once called hell, and it's already 3 years I'm away from home. Well don't get me wrong, this still is not paradise to me, that's for sure.

The life I'm living today/now, is just so unpredictable but predictable at the same time. Still can't believe the decision I made the day I decided to leave. Big guts indeed. Obviously, I have no idea what's coming towards me, but at least, I made a choice that I believe will change my life entirely.
AND it did.

Experiences gained along the way made me grew stronger and stronger everyday. Friendships, hardships, lonesome moments every now and then, it was an incredible journey for a 17 year old girl on stranger's land. There are days that I doubt my ability, which I know is wrong, because you can never count on anybody but yourself. You are in control of your emotions, ain't nobody gonna step on that ladder but yourself. Slowly, that reserved me opened herself up, and here I am today, looking back at that old me.

Back at home, it was really great to know almost everybody and never fail to bump into your friends on the street. But to stay stagnant, is not what I long for. There is just something that's missing, and I guess, I'm just craving for an adventure, or maybe, adventures. Yes friends do play a big part in your life, but I guess I gotta accept the fact that people will move on, and they do. You're still friends, yes, but you will start to have your own career, your own family, your own life. Catching up will still be done, but now that new life, is your priority.

Growing up is never easy, and I wish I could just stop at certain age and stay that way forever. But eh, that is not possible and we gotta catch up with life, make it interesting because we only live once. If you do it right, once is more than enough.

If you ever think that life is boring, think again. There are people out there who are less fortunate and wish they can be in your shoes. If you think the world is against you, think again. Stop being a pessimist and start looking at the bright side. Do something to change your life, lighten it up and bring colours to that dull life of yours.

Always remember that you live not to please others, no matter what you do, people will judge. Let them be, for they are lifeless. Take those negative comments in quietly and use it as your source of motivation. Don't let it bring you down, let it be something that you wanna change to positive remarks instead. If they say you can't do it, well prove them wrong.

Nothing is impossible, even the word itself says "I'm possible". So what's stopping you now?

Build that courage in you and strive. I'm thankful that I took the first step. One after another, and here I am now, reaching the age of 21 and flying high. There are more to life that I will experience, and I can't wait.
Life, bring it on! :)

I can't deny the fact that there are days where I feel like I'm just a lost soul floating around, with no particular goal, feel lazy and down and just wanna shut myself up from the world. But those were just the days. Part and parcel of life.

And my way to release em stress? By writing and sketching :)
A friend of mine once told me to post it on my blog, and who knows, I'll get noticed?
Gahh~ when that day comes or when it happens, I must be one of the luckiest girl on earth. Which I doubt so~ Anyways, these are the few sketches below~